today

today. God loves me.

connected

its a little past midnight, i'm waiting up for my roommate. she's been in Russia since last thursday. business trip.

the idea of throwing my thoughts out there for the world to read seems pretty strange if you ask me - i mean i don't generally do that. throw my thoughts out there, that is. i'm a private person, people usually have to work pretty hard to get something interesting about my life, thoughts, feelings, passions and dreams. i usually save that for my most private friend. the journal. those pages hold a lot of my pain.

so why start spilling all that emotion over the internet, where any person can just check it out? i honestly have no idea. maybe its that its "safely anonymous". kind of like talking to people on long plane rides. you know the kind of amazing coversation that you continue to visit in your mind years after that plane ride.

but for some odd reason...it haunts you. and you don't know how it stuck your soul. words are more powerful than people really give them credit for. amazing.

maybe its that i want to be connected. this is just another way to do it...